Supposed to be once a month post but what a failure I’ve become!!!

So much has happened over this past year, so many “Marcuses” and “Ivans” whose battle were victorious, and yet some were lost. I might add a “Clarissa” to the list.

Well, its this time of the year to wish people “Gung hei Fatt choy!” “san neen fai lok!” “San thai keen hong”

Praying about what the new year will bring me, let it be in God’s will, purpose and plans.

Anyhow, i’ve learnt to ride a bike 8 years after i’ve driven, and now, I’ve got my bike, there’s still hope in learning the bass, just need lots of time to practice.

Looks like i need to give up my gym membership. I haven’t been to the gym for TWO WEEKS! Feeling soft already. Now I need more time if I want to learn the bass! Need a bass amp too!

Such expensive dreams I have!

After browsing through FB and saw all the happy whatevers and nonsense going on there… and I myself joining in the mindless thoughts and conversations and thinking selfishly of only ourselves.. a sudden wave of emotion just washed over me.

The previous NZ Christchurch quake just happened a few weeks ago and now Japan. The quakes are just TOO CLOSE TOGETHER. The earth is RAPIDLY deteriorating. The SIGNS are so CLEAR.
And what am I doing? I’m sitting carefree on my bum while I need to be watchful, cos Christ is coming back. But not everyone knows the truth. They need to be saved!

I need to be vigilant! He is coming back SOON!
Lord have mercy.

I spoke to a few people who were in the same industry, they all said the same thing:

“I used to have a nice voice that can hit higher notes, after teaching for some time and losing my voice, I am now not able to sing like that anymore/ hit those notes that I used to be able to hit last time!”

Or rather they probably have a lower voice or, a more limited range! Arrgh, i cant afford to lose my voice over some kids! It aint worth it, I’m giving too much of me for this job! I want my life back!

I want to be able to still karaoke and sing!

Now its very rusty due to months of inactivity and being out of practice!
Easter practices starting again this weekend! Gulp.

No offence to kids who already have this name but are not naughty. It just applies to the broader spectrum of other kids under this category of names that are superbly naughty. Actually, naughty is really a MILD word to describe them!

A certain Ivan is driving me insane. I just dont know how to deal with this kid. I sprouted a strand of white hair from my head. So it really is true that stress and kids can make ur hair grow white!

No! I must find ways to keep my youthfulness intact

What a bum i was today! I slept the WHOLE morning and half of the afternoon! I never slept so much before.

The kids really tire me out. I need to find a way to keep my energy level up to keep up with them. What will I do if I have a kid of my own the next time? How to cope with them!?

Raising my glass to the full time moms who are at home watching the kids 24/7, especially when you have more than 2! Cheers!

After a week of disturbed sleep, the insomnia got the better of me on Monday, into my second week of work. I was a blurry mess the whole day long. Forgetting to bring the books, bringing the wrong books and wrong materials to the WRONG CLASS! That’s the biggest nightmare! Perhaps the class thought bad of me… I hope they have short memories.

This job really saps my energy. High pitched screams in the class for about 2 hours per session leave my ears ringing for a little while after. Then out of nowhere names of the children pop up into my mind! Am I stressed?

Well well,today marks the day where my status changes to aunty. No, I’m not married nor do I have any babies of my own, but its a new job that “knights” me with this title of honour.

Its going to take alot of getting used to and I need higher energy levels too.

I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength!

Its the same with quiet time, we want to spend time with God, then put it aside for one day, two, three, then the desire itself is totally gone. Hard to get it back. Leaving me to be a lazy bum.

Hmm, need to start the good habits and leave the bad habits behind. Perhaps to start with what I’ve learnt today –
“Why so downcast oh my soul?”
THere are only 2 reasons why we can be downcast -
1. One who does not yet know the Lord
2. One who is living in unconfessed sin / displeasing God in their lives.

Apart from that, we really have no reason to be downcast, becos we put our hope in God!
Isn’t that powerful?

Tomorrow is my first day! kinda filled with excitement/anticipation/ butterflies / heart palpitations!

11 more working days till i leave, am filled with anticipation! !

Been slacking off lately which is really bad. Need to be a good employee for the coming 10 days. REally no mood. Somehow when you know you are leaving you just feel that way.. Cannot steal the time that I am owing.
ok, back to work proper now!